Right One stays

Hope we all doing fine in this pandemic I try to type some mindful "reminder of the day" but recently, i just cant be bother to do anything out of work. Just had a 7-day holiday and I've been binge wathing varity shows and TV drama. And my migranie made me wonder how long i …

“She Fine”

Try to make sure i still have my sanity in this madness I Got a new job which to cover my rent barely I called my dad yersterday cause it tends out i dont have enough money to cover next month's rent I cant talk anymore or rather i dont know what to say when …

16

This is the year when i left home This is the year I start to change This is also the year I know how I am rasing differently This is also the year I want to go back If there is a time machine I will give everything to aborad I will not make different …

The wrong baby

This post is the next bit for the last post I think i have finally found the reason for the mistakes of my life “ I am the wrong baby for my parents” Before I explain， I want to say that I am very sorry to let my father down After all, he did what …

The lies we live with

As I grow up, I realized that the hardest thing to ask from my fellow beings is Honestly No wonder we are constantly reminded to tell the truth How insecure we can be that we have to romanticize every lies we hear Can we all achieve 100% honest, and the truth is no That is …

A strange jitter

Not sure what 2020 mean to all？ or we just want to randomly forget about everything that is happening I, for one, did not feel any different besides the fact i am very much wanting to be in love Oh, how ironic since i spent a whole fucking year to rent a man or boy …

Next Stop： Please smile

I ve been reading heavily Well, for me 2 books /month is not light reading I told my mate the other day:" I am going to be a barista" she laughed at me since for a very long time i am in fashino industry But i am actually serious and I love coffee There are …

Alone

Did I write somthing on this adjective？ I bet I did every night when i experience a certain drowning sensation Then I breath heavily not in a sexy way but a desprate way of trying to stay alive It happens so often nowdays Maybe it is becasue i dreamt about my death s many times …

Disguised dreamer

It is not a vision，it is always an illusion I am not happy，I dont know if i will ever be happy or it is not essential to be happy why do you tell me to hustle hard， did it ever occur to you i am doing my best every second What is alive or living …

Perspectives

Remember that purple or black dress confusion trending worldwide？ That was the perfect example of what different perspective can affect on what we see both with our eyes and minds I ve been listening to a lot insightful conversation on global finance,  friendship,racism , black beauty and white privillage... Basically, everything I suddenly realize the …