it take places in different forms

when it comes to life, this may be the last thing we search for

in young age, it is the innocent and power of unknown

when time goes by ,it is the one thing we  grow to neglect

it is not what we don’t want it, we just lost the direction to it with age and reality

 At some point, it is the joy of the old but not dead

or we just simply embrace whatever life have installed for us

In this moment, it is every conversation i have without getting depressed over a smidgen of dishonest or sarcasm

maybe just maybe, everything is easier by searching for the true happiness


we may find happiness over the mist of disgruntled crowd or the beginning of the spring

for now happiness=believe+myself





Daily routine_Saturday

Noting is better than starting with a bare face for a video… Because people love an imperfection on successful beings. And that’s how u get the views.

Well, i would like to do that until i figure out the best lighting and natural makeup tricks.

For now, i will show u how spend my lazy Saturday or any day in my life since i am so chill.

If it a TGIF then i will probably woke up at noon.Lets just pretend i woke up in the morning on a Saturday ( just felt wrong to say this).

#1 11AM or later : I woke up and have a glass of cold water to boost my metabolism. Then wash my face and brush my tooth while listening to the Podcast  which I have recently obsessed with. 

#2 I don’t really do much skincare so i just put one Toner from Hera (Korean Brand) or just face mist for an easy fix. Then check Twitter and Insta for daily updates.

#3 I can’t start my day without my Coffee so i’m just put some make up then to Starbucks. I know the Starbucks is like 8 mins walk from my apartment but i just can leave my house without my make up. But it’s like a 8 mins make up with those below. 

Basically, what i need for my coffee run. Suncream from CLINIQUE; Shaaanxo Eye&lip palette from BHcosmetics; Cover FX Foundation 


#4 Yeah, I’m happy now since i had my coffee. Just let the ‘sun’ cure my Friday nights hangover. #skimmed Latte. PS: sometimes ,I m not even bothered to get a coffee i ‘ll just have a cup of tea of my choice. 

#5 Since i am too lazy to turn my laptop or those computer code lessons i decided to take won’t be the best company with my headache. I ‘ll just go # REDOUT. Besides I prefer paper book than Kindle. Also, i am half way of my Korean Vocabulary Book2. # infinite Learning


#5 The day is almost over and i have not had my brunch or dinner. I don’t really plan to but  i am just gonna have a meal.Yes, its cheat day.

#6 Now i have to work out since i had a burger. Then this is where the shower took place. Just between u and me, i can’t take a shower without working out. And i don’t really know why i ‘m not fit like i would image. But well, at least I am healthy. 

#7 Its late of the day, so i don’t really need to show u what I’m doing , u know, Netflix& Chill in a non sexual way or just Youtube and online shopping. 

Well, u have it, this is how a normal or non successful person’s Saturday routine. So don’t fooled by all those daily routine video. I don’t have the time to meet my friend its MA time ( but please go social though).

Anyway, this is probably how i spent my Saturdays or at least i wish i would.

And finally, i just want to remind everyone to enjoy their life and embrace the imperfections of ur life. I mean u r not alone.

Maybe we never had a life like those Social Influencers  u r following but we are trying our best to make our life better everyday. So be proud. 




They are getting better with our age
They lied  in between with  the ideal of self respect and vanity
they are something i discovered as the beauty of life
they healed our broken heart while we r in hell or could 
they become a major part of our lives until we start to live in a illusion
The more we tell the less real we became

One day we wake up to believe all the lies we tell

Then we became better at avoiding the truth

Then we start to giving up on things we used to know and the self we used to own

no matter how many lies we tell and how real they felt

in the end ,it is just a faded image that keeps our ego going in the light of reminding who we are

I’m okay; I’m happy;I’m successful;I’m real;I’m……
all the fine lies we tell…
Then when will it stop?
it is the questions we will never ask

we would rather living in lies than face the harsh truth that we learned about our self

It does not  last long with others.

But we end up creating a whole story around lies

And it goes on and on until we can’t  tell whats real 


It is the best thing in the world

It is one’s desire 

when u hold on to it , u r the richest one on earth

when u try to search it, u r just as foolish as all of us 

It is something u thought u could have and u need

it becomes one’s destination where u stop  chasing

U though u need it but  in the end it is just an pretty illusion of giving up

in the end, it is the one thing to keep us form being the best version of our self

Don’t waste time on it since it is just like another impulsive affair

Try work till late of the night instead of drinking till u get inspired

It is the  most toxic  of all              

I once pray for the luck of the century  only because i want to live a easy life

Until the day i realise i never had it

i once thought  it belongs to those i despise 

Now i Know i am the one i despise and stop believing

It blurs ur vision and makes u believe the others only success with the help of luck

In the end , it is the strength and diligence make the magic 

If it is not too late  then please release me from Luck

And create my very own magic  with my power 

Night out tips

Let me clarify before i start getting into this topic.

U know the things u will never tell before  a night out or after.

Well, i  have some basic or essential tips when it comes to a  night out u might be related to.

Firstly, let’s establish one rule: don’t judge (or do  i don’t really give a fuck)

Anyway, this is what i do for  a night out.

Note: this is only applied to Singles (if u r in a relationship then just ask ur better half for advice)



I know this will be TMI but let’s be real, aren’t we all concerned about this. Because u never know, u may just find ur one on  the sticky and crowded  dance floor. I’m not implying that u have to shave if u want to  leave ur V the way it is, then go for it! It is ur choice. However, i always do though since i just felt right.

And the term” get laid” is not only apply to guys so just go for it.

# Dress code

Some people may say dress as little as u can. But girl to girl, i think just have a proper amount of skin. Then u r good to go. U have to know, not everyone will party with a team of security detail. ( if u do then bless u)

We all dress to impress but u don’t have to dress to impress others.

# Have a personality

I know when u r single things can get a bit depressing but  u don’t have to be .  U  just  need to be u and not being so subconscious about if a hot guy gonna notice u. Then u might end up making friends at the end of the nights.

# Pre-drink

Make sure u have some food and yogurt.( not sure why yogurt though)

This just makes sure u don’t get drunk too soon . Also, about pre-drink, a girl should never have too many shots at a pre-drink party. So pace urself, the night is long.

# u don’t have to give ur number to every guy that brought u a drink.

Guys, this is when the fake number and alcohol  come in handy. No one will blame u and also if u r just to nice to turn them down, u don’t need to worry about what to text them when u r sober.

# Don’t be easy.

Just for u know, i have seen a lot of people leave with the first guy who hits on them. I mean, seriously, do u really think a one night stand is how u meet ur futrue husband or wife. Lets be real, it’s just sex.

#A pack of Marlboro without a light

This is a personal thing. Form my experiences, u can have a decent talk with someone during  one cigarette . If u r okay with smoking then this tip is gold. (FYI, I’m not a regular smoker but i do smoke when the opportunity presents themselves.

#Just relaxed and have fun, make sure u went back home safely.


Well, that is about it. I know in some culture, clubbing sounds like a really bad idea. But for me, as long as u r going to legal places under a legal age then u r allowed to have a life. Also, remember, a night out is about fun instead of mating. If u r really looking for a relationship then i suggest u try Tinder.








What CVs actually said

DO u still remember how excited u were when u graduated form uni and all ready to conquer the world💪?

I sure remember how proud i am when i wrote my resume or Curriculum Vitae ( if anyone even bothered to Google the term👁)

Then, when my email is loaded with’ sorry,unfortunately,maybe and followed with a hash no. i started to feel like i have had a terrible flu which i will never recover from😷.

AND Maybe this is what i should have put in my CV or just slip a email for any HR department.

After all, we all get our confident crashed at some point so why just save the bull shits which people might just end up skipping .

So there is what CVs are meant to say:


To  "whoever in charge",

before u make a call to deliver the bad news

Please hear me out

I'm in the point that I am ashamed of taking money from my parents whom never believe me enough to let me go.

Tired of seating in my chair and doing some projects that no one gives a fuck. And yet, I think it's meant something.

I m also experienced depression and may have passed it whenever people tell me I can't .

I have been told so many things but they all have the same message started with "No'".I'm not proud anymore or to anyone.

I still try not to waste or freeze my brain cells by challenging myself with things I haven't heard of.

So far, all I experienced is the anger and pity to myself while watching others success.

I have been somebody 's daughter , sister, friend, girlfriend, classmate for so long the only thing I want is to have my own" 's"

I know no company with a high profile will hire a person with little or even zero experience like me and I respect that.

However, the only thing I can promise is to give my every bit of hard work as any human has.

All I ask is an opportunity to be able to live my life . Take me as a charity case or a risk or whatever u think I am

But in the end, I am willing to work hard, fight for a better version of me and not let me down. At last, what I have is respect to myself.

Now feel free to add another stroke to my list of rejections.

Pain(고통 ….

It is something you can see but effected u more than anything…
They r invisible but everywhere…
It is in different kinds of forms it is like air But u try so hard to escape….
Some people may say it is just an illusion ……
And u still keep asking yourself how can i get over it…..
It is that type of ex u can not just drink  away or forget…..
It is like quicksand the more you struggle the deeper you r in……
It is unlimited until you decide to go with it and even work with it…………

그래서, 아무것이나 괜찮아.