Right One stays

Hope we all doing fine in this pandemic I try to type some mindful "reminder of the day" but recently, i just cant be bother to do anything out of work. Just had a 7-day holiday and I've been binge wathing varity shows and TV drama. And my migranie made me wonder how long i … Continue reading Right One stays

“She Fine”

Try to make sure i still have my sanity in this madness I Got a new job which to cover my rent barely I called my dad yersterday cause it tends out i dont have enough money to cover next month's rent I cant talk anymore or rather i dont know what to say when … Continue reading “She Fine”

Interrogation

Me:“ I never felt supported or loved by you” Me:“U never cared and i was just trying to do what I want to do” You: “ I am just asking you why cant you find some random boring job” Me:“I cant and I tried, my experiences doesn't match” Me:“I am trying by myself ans It … Continue reading Interrogation

16

This is the year when i left home This is the year I start to change This is also the year I know how I am rasing differently This is also the year I want to go back If there is a time machine I will give everything to aborad I will not make different … Continue reading 16

The wrong baby

This post is the next bit for the last post I think i have finally found the reason for the mistakes of my life “ I am the wrong baby for my parents” Before I explain, I want to say that I am very sorry to let my father down After all, he did what … Continue reading The wrong baby

Growing up

I've been reading "three women" I was so addicted about the stories related to those three women It is fascianting to find out their truma and what made the way they are Most important, their desrie whithin However, since yesterday, I had a reading slump, more accurately, I cant read the story without getting super … Continue reading Growing up

Before the Storm

What happened before a storm It is the brightest sunny day ever The universe is a fansinating space which you can never know what is going to present next It is also like the most myterious illusion master that you find urself believe in it over and over again I was told to live a … Continue reading Before the Storm

Final Chapter

I wonder how long will it take to stop me muttering about my no -fuck happened life Well, it is now I wanted to put an end on whatever I felt about adn experienced with my personal life And honestly, i am not going to stop feeling whatever emotions in my heart But at this … Continue reading Final Chapter

The lies we live with

As I grow up, I realized that the hardest thing to ask from my fellow beings is Honestly No wonder we are constantly reminded to tell the truth How insecure we can be that we have to romanticize every lies we hear Can we all achieve 100% honest, and the truth is no That is … Continue reading The lies we live with

A strange jitter

Not sure what 2020 mean to all? or we just want to randomly forget about everything that is happening I, for one, did not feel any different besides the fact i am very much wanting to be in love Oh, how ironic since i spent a whole fucking year to rent a man or boy … Continue reading A strange jitter